August 2011
2 posts
The way we get by
The way we get through life is by telling ourselves a bunch of things to make us feel better. You need to find the balance between convincing yourself life is one way and letting yourself be surprised by people. No one’s ever right, not you, not anyone else. So keep that in mind. It’s easy to think that everyone else has got their head on straight and yours is lopsided, but...
I think I am a high-functioning Aspie.
I see little point in life sometimes
I need a rigid schedule to give me purpose and direction
I can spend hours doing one, often weird, thing..
I take everything very literally
I feel really disconnected from other people all the time
I have trouble focusing on things
I feel really stressed by life, all the time, no matter what I’m doing
I wish...
July 2011
4 posts
life: it can be as simple or as complicated as you...
How much is too much to expect of other people? Do I expect too much of other people? So what if my expectations for other people are higher than most people have for each other and for themselves? Maybe it’s not even that I expect too much of people, but my standards for friendships and relationships are higher than most people’s my age so in comparison they seem high. No, actually no...
musings of the day
Um wow. So I just cracked open my old diary from high school that ended around my junior year..and..wow! That was a weeeiiirdd walk down memory lane slash peek into the can of worms that was my 15-16-17 year old brain! I was a weird kid. Okay who am I kidding, AM a weird kid! What was really kind of interesting to me was the number of times I wrote about feeling depressed, sad, shy, misunderstood,...
My challenge.
Tough Mudder. If it starts to seem like I’m becoming obsessed, it’s because I am. I need to be: right now I can’t do one push up, I can’t run a mile straight, I can’t do a pull-up, and most of all I can’t keep feeling so insecure and lacking conviction. So what can I do: I can run 7/10 of a mile without stopping, I can lift 10 and 20 lb weights, and have...
GOALS
We’re starting small here…cus I can’t do a real push up, or some of the stuff on the tough mudder training list.
1. Run on the treadmill for at least 35 minutes every day: alternate between jogging 5mph for 2 min and 6mph for 1 min
2. Do AT LEAST 15 girly pushups a day (until I can actually do a real one)
3. Do 100 reps of 3lb weight exercises every day (until I can do 10lbs)